Onward and upward!
Thank you for being part of our journey these 3 years! We've so appreciated all your kind words and visits. Onward and upward with our journey!
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Free Falling
Almost 3 weeks ago now I stood atop a cliff with my toes hanging over the edge. Behind me a journey of steps sure and straight at times and wandering and faint at other times. But each with a forward purpose guided by a higher power. As I lifted my head, I saw an endless horizon. Far below, a bottom I couldn’t see or know what was waiting there. A breeze that was faint months before was now whistling past me lifting my hair in ever changing arcs around my head. My heart, while racing a bit, was steady. It was time, I was sure, to take the next step. This one was to be a different from the ones behind me. This one was to be off the edge of the cliff.
So step I did. One last exhale and my finger pushed send launching the “I Have Something to Tell You” newsletter to your inboxes. No returning to the ledge. Trusting that this step was certain. For the last 3 years, the My Toy Garden journey has felt one far beyond my doing on my own but one guided by a higher power. As sure as I was to begin the journey, I am sure that the leap off of the cliff was the right step too. A time to trust in a greater plan than I could ever make on my own.
So now here I am….falling…falling…falling…. For days now….falling…. falling… To my surprise though, I am calm. I am peaceful. I am happy. I am not sure how this fall will end but I am sure that all will be as it is meant to be. The picture of my nephew below has resonated in my thoughts. I have felt since last October when I first listed the business for sale privately, that it will sell. That it will continue with a new owner who has the time and talent to maintain and take it to a new level. To make the next dreams I have for it reality. But who? I can see the seeds that were strewn about years ago blossoming and growing into a beautiful garden. In the center is something missing. It’s time to find the centerpiece that will begin the next season of the store. I need your help to find it.
My business broker has met with a woman who would be a wonderful new toy lady. She is someone who wants to keep the store as it is and sprinkle more seeds to grow it. She is someone with the time, talent and enthusiasm to take over. She is working on the financial pieces of it and that’s where you come in. I feel that it’s not one person I’m looking for but two perhaps: one to run the store and one to invest in the store. I believe I have found one. Now I need to find the other. Who do you know that is ready to make a difference to families in the Carmel community and partner to keep it open? I feel it is one of you or someone you know that we are looking for. Please share the press release below anywhere you can to help us find an investor or a new owner. Time is running short as the shelves empty. I suspect in another 2-3 weeks the shelves will be bare of almost. All things truly are possible though. I believe. If you or anyone you know has questions, please let me know.
I think I see the bottom coming clearer and my parachute beginning to open. I’m looking. I’m listening. I’m trusting. And praying. What cliff are you standing at the edge of? Be brave. Listen for guidance and if you hear that your next step is to step off, then step off and know that you will be caught somehow, someway. The way is not for you to know. Trust. Thank you for being part of this journey. It’s going to be an interesting next few weeks!
Monday, April 28, 2014
The Journey
It started off innocently enough….a postcard in a gift shop with a picture of an emerald green lake surrounded by a lush forest. Green…hmmmm… curious..interesting color for a lake. The picture invited me to step closer, bend and peer, intrigued. Where did that say this lake was? At the top of a dormant volcano? One that was accessible by foot? The entrance to the trail started behind the gift shop? It was more than my gypsy spirit could resist so hiking shoes donned; off we went in search of the elusive green lake.
The beginning of the journey filled our eyes with plants that must have come from Dr Seuss’s imagination….shapes and sizes not found in Indiana. Bark in camouflage stripes of light green, bright green and creamy almond. An giant army of leaf cutter ants steadfastly carrying their hard earned payloads over the riverbank to their home in an endless line we watched for several breathless minutes. With a start like that, my gypsy soul longed to see what lay ahead.
The terrain began to turn upward gently and the tree trunks grew a bit thicker. The thickening branches thinned the sunlight streaming down. Ferns covered the ground with their curling fingers beckoning us forward. The roots of the trees twisted and peeked through the soil in rivulets. 30 minutes later, the roots grew thicker and more challenging to step over. The canopy became a floating carpet of green allowing peeks of sunshine to filter through. Another 45 minutes later and the climb became quite steep with steps being methodically taken. Place one boot thigh high up on a root and....deep breath...uuuuuuuppppp. Whew. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. I became a human fountain of sweat. Another 45 minutes of sheer upward focus refusing to quit now but determined to see the journey through. And there....there is was....the green lake!! Amazing!!!
As I've reflected on the past three years of the My Toy Garden journey, I've been reminded of this day in Costa Rica years ago. Creating and running My Toy Garden has been a ton of work. Many, many late nights. Many, many decisions to be made and parts to juggle. Days, weeks taken one slow but giant step at a time....uuuuuppppp! And along the way...wondrous things to behold making it totally worthwhile! So many special people I've met and had the pleasure to help on so many different levels. The busy swarms of children who have spent many a happy day coming to play and learn and enjoy. The meaningful conversations sparked by something found in a newsletter. It's the journey I was meant to take. Now that I'm at the top of the mountain...looking at that miracle of a green lake.. having accomplished so much, it's time to begin the journey down. The next few weeks will be challenging but a long rest is just ahead. I do hope that we meet on the pathways ahead for us both. It's been an honor to serve you!
Thursday, April 10, 2014
I Have Something to Tell You
Dear My Toy Garden Friends,
I have something to tell you. Those words do have a way of knotting the stomaches of both the giver and the receiver, don't they? For the giver who is about to deliver the news, the days tick by so very slowly as they ponder what words to use that can lesson the impact of what they are about to say. An invisible weight tethered to their heart wishing there was another way.
For the receiver, a day that is zipping right along comes to a sudden stop as their mind races wondering what, oh what, can the news be? Their imaginations run wild imagining all of the worst things. The moment their ears first hear those words, their pulse quickens. Their eyes search the face of the giver searching for clues. They breath in but not out.
Well, My Toy Garden friends, I have something to tell you and today is the day. Um, well...hmm....for once my fingers are at a standstill at the keyboard. How do I explain? Perhaps like a bandaid to just rip off? Perhaps to slowly reveal what is behind the creaking door?
Imagining, designing, breathing life into My Toy Garden has been a great joy. For the past 3 years, I've challenged myself in so many ways and learned a few lifetimes of lessons along the way. I truly feel that God led me to open the store and those steps were part of the plan for my life. That path is taking a new direction now and I believe that My Toy Garden is not part of that direction going forward.
A little over a year ago, I stepped back a bit from the business to spend more time with my growing miracles, Lily and Nicholas. They were 1 and 4 when I opened the store. This month they turn 4 and 7. Wow. While I love My Toy Garden dearly, I love my children more. Try though I have to balance the store and motherhood, it's been very difficult. When I look back at my life, I want to be more proud that I raised strong children rather than a strong toy store.
So, what now? Want to buy a toy store?! I'll make you a deal! Really. My Toy Garden has been privately listed for sale since last October. If you or someone you know wants to take the reins from here, now is your chance. My Toy Garden has become a beloved place in the community and I would love to find someone to take over. I so appreciate the many very kind comments you make about how much you love the store. I'm so thankful to have been part of special family events in your life and to have donated to local charities and programs. I know it's very sad news for many of you that My Toy Garden is likely to not be here much longer. If taking over My Toy Garden is something you want to explore more, just let me know. Soon though please.
In order to enjoy the summer with Lily and Nicholas, my plans are to start clearing the shelves as of today. (Most everything is officially 15% off now) If a buyer comes forward great! If not, then all will be okay too. Either way, I'm looking forward to more time with my children soon. I am sorry to let any of you down in any way. I do hope you know how much I have cherished your support and kind words. I also hope you understand that I must put my children first.
A few other things to note:
- Next Friday, will be the last story time at My Toy Garden. We'll enjoy The Enormous Carrot and do a fun Easter craft. All other story times are cancelled.
- Additional markdowns will be taken as we go along. I would invite you to stop by often the next few weeks or join us on FB to get the latest news on that.
- All fixtures and furniture are for sale. If you don't see a price on something and you think you want it, just ask!
- There will be two more Society for Young Magicians Meetings held here. One tonight and one on Thurs., May 8 They normally take the summer off. Stay tuned for new location info for the fall from them.
- Have you enjoyed reading the newsletters? I do enjoy writing and appreciate hearing that many of you enjoy reading what I wrote. I plan to continue to write and will do so at my new blog at www.theoddmom.com. Come Follow me there to get the newest posts!
- This step would not be possible without the blessings of Wildtree. Many of you know that as passionate as I am about child development and play, I am also passionate about nutrition. Direct sales has been part of my life for many years and I am loving being back and, this time, with a company committed to helping families learn how to put a healthy meal on the table fast and easy. In just 8 months, I've double promoted to Senior Team Leader with Wildtree and earn enough to be able to meet the financial obligations of leaving the toy store. If you have a dream that you think is impossible, talk to me. There might be ways you can't or have not seen just yet. Anything truly is possible! My Wildtree website to go explore more is www.mywildtree.com/janetp
- Many of you have asked when the next Wildtree Freezer Meal Workshop will be. I've decided to host one last workshop at the store the end of May. Let's do Get Your Grill On on Thurs., May 29 at 7 pm. We'll get those freezers stocked and ready for summer before the kids are officially out of school! See below for more details.
- Last, if the freezer meal workshop doesn't sound like the right fit for you right now, you can join in the Wildtree April Mystery Host Party happening right now until Sun., April 27. Place an order online on my website under the Mystery Host Event and you could win all the free host credit that will be anywhere from $30 and up! More info is found here.
Whew, I think that's it....thank you so much for being part of this amazing journey! I look forward to seeing you at least one more time and hopefully our paths will cross many more times in the months and years ahead. It truly has been an honor to be part of your lives!
Sincerely,
Toylady Janet
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Tangled and Frozen
It happened again today. It happened a few months ago and a few months before that and countless times over the last several years. And yet it still surprises me. Shocks me. It makes me worry more and more for the future.
Everywhere I looked today I was surrounded by a Frozen frenzy. "Did you get your video?" "I'm staring out the window waiting for the mail truck! Where is it?! " "I've called every store within a 3 hours drive and finally found her!" "I paid a fortune on Amazon for the dress but I got it!" "My daughter knows all the lyrics of all the songs...shoot, I do too!" "Want to watch my 500 Youtube videos of Frozen songs?"
This happened with the last "hot" thing and the one before that and the one before that. Why is it that people go crazy for something that will, in a few short months, end up in their garage sale bin for next to nothing? Why do they spend their hard earned dollars on something so fleeting? Disney is tickled and singing Frozen tunes all the way to the bank. Sales from the movie alone so far have exceeded $900 million. Wait, think about that...$900 million dollars. Oh the problems of this world we could solve with that kind of money funneled in other directions!! Hunger. Homelessness. Illiteracy. Crazy. Totally crazy. As I've pondered this today through yet another frenzy, here's my two cents...
1) We must have the latest to show our child we love them. We want them to have what other children have so they know we love them. I invite you to ponder...Is this really how we want to show love to our children?
2) We must have the latest whatever so that we will fit in with what we perceive to be cool, to be like others, to not feel left out. We like to be part of something bigger. I invite you to ponder...Is that a group you really want to be part of and why or why not? Look deeper at the whys of our actions.
3) We must have the latest because we want to create special memories with our children that we hope will last a lifetime. I invite you to ponder....What memories are we really creating?
What will they really remember from the experience?
What are we really teaching out children when we place such a high value on material things and go to such extremes to own them? I invite you to ponder....what do our actions show is really most important in our lives? Trends like this explode because of the masterful marketing that pulls on our emotions and weaknesses. Many companies are much more concerned about how much money they can make and care little about at what cost to us, our families and our character. This is a very scary, very slippery slope of consumerism. I invite you to explore a website call [Commercial Free Childhood](http://www.commercialfreechildhood.org/) to learn more about the research on marketing to children.
I believe with all my heart that it can be different and needs to be different. Your dollars decide that what companies thrive and survive. I invite you to ponder what values and companies you are feeding with your dollars. Are they companies that value relationship more than money? Are they companies that value character traits such as creativity, patience, determination in healthy ways? Spend with your mind as well as your heart and may the two be more and more in alignment with one another. This generation and the next and the next depends on it.
Monday, September 30, 2013
Dad, Is This What It's Like?
Dear My Toy Garden Friends,
One of the most memorable stories I know of Joey goes like this...Another round of chemo just ahead in an endless journey of treatments and the mandatory fasting was in progress. Joey's stomach ached for food...gnawing at his mind and heart.
"Dad, is this what it's like?" Joey asked.
"It?" puzzled his father. The answer to come was unexpected and no one, except Joey, could have imagined the beauty that bloomed from the seed of that sentence.
"It," Joey pondered. "Is this what it feels like to be homeless?"
Silence..more silence as a father who had wrestled with so words so very many times in the past year prayed for the right words to come.
"Yes, Joey. I imagine it is."
"Dad, we can't let that be. We have to help." Help. From a little boy whose daily tasks of self care and survival were all consuming. Help from a little boy whose brain was under attack. Help. He knew he could though and help he did. From that conversation, grew Team Joey Million Meal Marathon held at Lucas Oil Stadium so that so many other children would not feel those pangs of hunger. We can learn much from Joey Keller...
(From the Pointe to a Cure website.) Joey Keller was born on July 4th, 2003 in Fort Wayne, Indiana. In the middle of a torrential downpour and huge booms of thunder, around 9pm, little Joseph entered the world. To his parents, this was a true miracle for they were told they would not be able to have children of their own. In that respect, Joey was a miracle from the get-go. In the fall of 2010 Joey was enjoying a normal childhood, busy with school work, sports, Legos, family and friends, when he began to have severe nausea in the mornings and after playing outside. After weeks of struggling and doctors doing tests, on November 21st, a CT scan finally revealed a golf ball size tumor in the posterior fossa (back) of Joey’s brain. He was rushed to Riley Children’s Hospital, and radiation was started immediately. The lab tests after the tumor resection confirmed Joey had medulloblastoma, a very hard to treat and aggressive type of pediatric cancer. Joey was already at stage 4 with dissemination down his spine. If they didn’t start treatment immediately, he would be in a coma within days. Joey came through the surgery with flying colors, actually asking the surgeon, while his head was still fixed to the operating table and they were closing the incision, “Is the surgery over yet?” It took a couple of weeks for him to come out the hospital, but they used an ambulance to transport him across the street to IU Simon Cancer Center for daily emergent radiation treatments. Eventually his energy, sight, and strength improved, allowing his amazing personality to again shine. Growing up, Joey was always focused on others. When his friends would come over to play at his house, he would offer his toys, food, or money to them, if he felt he had more than they did. At his soccer games, as soon as a teammate seemed upset or got hurt, Joey became focused on trying to help him feel better. At times, this forced the coach to put in another player because Joey didn’t ask permission; he just went with the hurt player or stayed with a player on the sidelines who was upset because he missed a goal or the team got beat. One of Joey’s parents’ favorite pictures of him, from a vacation, is of him with his hand on his cousin’s shoulder at a putt-putt course, comforting him after a tough round. He seemed to always gravitate to hurting people and to do whatever it took to make them feel better.
During Joey’s long months of chemotherapy, radiation, and hospital stays, there was no shortage of hurting people. Joey was always talking with and praying for these hurting kids and their families. Once, a boy and his family down the hall had received really bad news, and Joey could hear the boy crying. He immediately asked his dad to drive home and get a big Star Wars Lego set that Joey had saved for and give it to the boy, in an effort to cheer him up. On another occasion when friends came to visit Joey at his house, he found out that the boy his age was really into a certain kind of Legos that Joey had; when the boy mentioned that he didn’t have any of that particular set, Joey gave him what he had. His parents felt that for an 8 year old, going through the seemingly endless chemo, nausea, and physical therapy to learn to walk again, this was remarkable. It seemed that Joey had figured out, at his young age, that giving was truly more fun than receiving.
In the fall of 2011 Joey relapsed and began chemotherapy for recurrent disease. Those treatments only provided a temporary slowing of the tumors’ growth, and he began to lose control of his facial muscles; so the family and medical team decided to repeat radiation so he could continue to eat, talk, and show the world that wonderful smile that could light up a room. In late September 2012, he began having seizures, and the cancer progressed to a place where medicine had nothing left to offer. He slowly lost the ability to walk, to eat, to communicate, to remember the Legos he loved, to recognize his parents, and, on November 18, 2012, to breathe.
The Team Joey Program, through Heroes Foundation, gives fifty cents of every dollar toward pediatric cancer research and the other fifty cents toward buying and giving out Legos to any child battling cancer.
If he did and does make such a difference with his young life, what's holding you back? How can you use your gifts to help your passion?
With love,
Toylady Janet
Toylady Janet
PS. For me, one of my great passions in this world is to do whatever I can to invite people to take a serious look at what causes such horrors as cancer and autism and other major health issues we face. I invite people to explore their healthcare, their chemicals in their environment and what is really in the food their eat. One conversation at a time, I'm convinced we can one day slow the growth of this horrors and one day, oh how sweet that day will be, see these trends reverse. Many answers are out there already if we only would peek from our cozy perches and look and learn and share. Thank you to all who have joined in the battle already! Welcome to the others.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Pearls from a Crabby Man's Wife
Dear My Toy Garden Friends,
Vacations are a flowing stream of memories created and captured and treasured. Our trip to Florida over the last few days was no different. Days filled with sand castles, wave jumping, lizard catching, crabs and seashells. As I sit tonight and reflect over the last 6 days visiting my husband's father and stepmother, it is not an image of my children playing that stands out the most though there are plenty of fun images to treasure. It is a comment uttered while perched on the top of a palm tree trunk on a sunny day at the beach. A comment that soaked into my heart like the warmth of the sun. It's amazing how God puts us in the right place at the right time to hear what we most need to hear. This week, I share her words so that they may be just what you need to hear as well.
Sam, my father-n-law, has a talent for growing peppers and has a refrigerator full of his culinary creations. His personality is as peppery. He reads a great deal, trimming out articles from magazines and newspaper, underlining and highlighting them and gathering them together in a great brain mass of paper jumbled across the kitchen counter. He is quick to point out that he is right and you are wrong. He knows best and, if you just listen to him, all will be well. A jab there. A poke there. Frequently criticizing but seldom aware of it. Not an easy man to be married to.
My beach buddy yesterday was his wife of 40 years, Chris. I've wondered at the mystery of how this woman could be married to this man after all the years putting up with so much. Now I know her secret.
Just down the beach a young couple seemed to be enjoying capturing their visit to the beach with a series of photos. "Ah, young love," I commented.
"Young love? Nah. I'd rather have old love. It's much better. It's calm. It's sure. It's strong."
"It's all about compromise," she continued. "If you are married to a man who is no good, then move on. If you are married to a good man, you compromise and make it work." Compromise...such a hard word in this egocentric world of I must be right and you must be wrong. Compromise...challenging in this quest to find the perfect partner only to learn that truly, no one is perfect. Compromise...the forgiving, the letting go, the seeking peace, the lifting up of the other. Compromise....the give and take that makes love grow from young love to old love...calm. Sure. Strong. Thank you Chris for the gift of love....true love that lasts. I can think of no greater gift to give ourselves or model for our children.
Playfully,
Toylady Janet
Toylady Janet
Sunday, August 4, 2013
My Mother's Last Words
Dear My Toy Garden friends,
Uncle Allen was gone. One of those fluke things. A spot was noticed on his lung. A routine biopsy and, in a blink, he was gone. The sad phones calls began to share the news with family and friends. Who would tell Aunt Verina though?
"Not I," said the son.
"Not I," said the daughter. Who? No one wanted to call and tell my mom that her brother had passed away.
My mother, the youngest in her family of five, lived a very challenging life growing up. Years of abuse on many levels had left her with emotional scars that are so hard to heal. Her explosive outbursts toward family in fast food restaurants, grocery stores and special gatherings had led to a very cautious approach of her. After many years of seeking to understand her, to support her and to love her in spite of the anger, I choose to distance myself. Sadly the distance grew not only from her but from the rest of my family as well.
Years passed...I became a mom....Uncle Allen was gone. A chance to come home to visit...perhaps reconnect. Dare I? Could things be different? Could a daughter feel her mother's love at long last? Mom learned of his passing and, to the amazement of all, behaved admirably....calling on his wife with her regrets....visiting the funeral home to say her goodbyes...all without a moment of drama. A major, major milestone for her. I was so proud...so very proud as I knew how very difficult it must have been for her. So proud I wanted her to know. Not in a letter. Not on the phone but with my eyes. With my heartfelt words. Perhaps this could begin to melt the ice between us.
With my infant daughter asleep in the backseat, I took a deep breath and slowed at her home. The rocks scattering beneath my tires, the car came to a stop. My heart like a butterfly trapped in a shoebox. A pause of my hand on the car door handle and a deep breath, I took the first step toward the house. As my hand raised to knock, the door opened and there she was. Wow. Had that many years really passed? Mom. With a quiver in my voice, the words rushed out, "Mom. I'm so proud of you." The sentences tumbled out as I attempted to tell her what I so wished for her to hear. Hope perching on my shoulder. I finished. The silence stretched around my heart. And then....bam. There it was just as I'd seen so many times before. Her anger. Swelling and gushing and swelling again...a storm of words intended to hurt. I stumbled off the steps and to my car her final words like arrows behind me. "Get the h... out of my house. Get the h...out of my life and don't ever f.... come back." My Mom's last words I heard.
I share this story this week for those like me and I've learned over the years that there are many of you out there. Those like me who are truly happy for people who get to enjoy the sweet experience of close family but whose hearts ache when they see family picnics, Mother's day gushes on Facebook, are invited to weddings of friends with rich family traditions. For those like me who long for their children to enjoy a large close family but know it can't ever be. Such a tangled web of emotions there are. To you, like me, I want to say, you are not alone. While friends can never fully take the place of your family, you are loved and you are important to many people out there. You are wonderful just the way you are no matter what your family is like. Bless and release but know that you are human and it's okay for the tears to fall from time to time.
I share this story this week for those of you who do enjoy amazing families so that you can be aware of those around you and perhaps notice the pain on another's heart so that you can offer a hug, a smile, a loving word of comfort. You can make a difference.
Most importantly, I share this story with you this week to help you understand that My Toy Garden is about so much more than selling toys. I so desire for children today to grow up connected to their families and to feel unconditional love. Love that comes from spending quality time with one another like playing a game, playing catch, doing a puzzle, caring for one another. In this rush, rush, rush world we choose to immerse ourselves in, what truly matters to you? What example are you setting for the children in your life? Let's make the most of today so the tomorrows will be full of love for all.
With Love,
Toylady Janet
Toylady Janet
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